The last several months I have had this itch to get going. To continue my education or rejoin the work force. A feeling that I was getting left behind. That I am missing my one and only shot to be in the helping field. That if I didn't get going now I would never get a chance. All of these things have caused me anxiety. A pressure on my chest. A pressure that I couldn't shake. That every time I applied for a job I was not doing what I was suppose to be doing during this time. I started to apply for jobs so I could feel in control of my life. Because I was feeling controlled by outside forces. That everything was happening to me. But I wasn't getting to make my own choices. This was all coming from my own fears. My own insecurities. That I am just a stay at home mom. I have nothing to show. Again, this is not a healthy mindset. This is not a growth mindset. I had a job interview. I dreaded every moment of the interview. Not because I didn't want the jo...