life. and everything in between

I have high aspirations to actually use this blog. I write often. Just haven't been in a good rhythm to share my thoughts, trust me there are many. So for now I will enjoy the time that I chose to spend writing. I am spending this evening, the eve of our tenth anniversary watching Levi bake. Literally. I am sitting on our kitchen floor watching him make rolls and pies. He hasn't worked in a professional kitchen for years now but he's still got it. But that is not just my opinion. In fact those words came from his own mouth. We are reflecting on what the past TEN years have meant to us. The good times. The bad times. The scary times. The hilarious times. The adventures, man have we been on a few. The one thing we both keep coming back to is this, WE COULD NOT HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR WITHOUT YOU. It's a true statement. You know that saying "It takes a village to raise a child"? We are that child (and not just because we were literal children when we got m...

I know the hopes and dreams of most parents is for their littles to sleep through the night. That the screeches for food at midnight would end. Because exhaustion is real folks. It makes us snap at your spouse, the dog, the toddler, you name it and we've snapped at it. Never did I imagine that I'd desire for a child of mine to wake up due to hunger. You see, Elias doesn't have hunger cues (or if he does he won't take his bottle, this kids is already sending mixed messages) for many reasons. He would sleep through the night without making a sound. If he we let him sleep through the night he loses weight, becomes even more lethargic, which leads to him to not eating at all. SO, we have in our room two alarm clocks. Clocks that wake us up to feed our baby. Clocks that tell us it's time to eat again. My heart desires to hear him cry @ midnight to tell me it's time to eat. But for now we have two alarm clocks.

"When you're down and out When you're on the street When evening falls so hard I will comfort you (ooo) I'll take your part, oh, when darkness comes And pain is all around Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down Like a bridge over troubled water I will lay me down I will ease your mind" The first time I heard the song 'Bridge Over Troubled Water' (the Johnny Cash version of course), I thought that is what I wanted to be. I want to be the bridge over troubled water for people. I want to walk with people through their storms. In many ways this song has become an anthem for me. Never did I expect to be the one who needed a bridge. The one who needed a friend, to be comforted. I have shared before, I have a problem remembering I am human. Ha.  One morning while getting ready this song came on and I felt something in my soul that moved me. The holy spirit said to me "Your turn. It is your turn to let ...

It is very sad that I haven't written anything since August. So much has been going on. But I am finding a rhythm to life. I hope to write more often but this one is going to be dedicated to the crazy that is my first born. Addison Grace. Can you say spit fire? This girl has an opinion and wants the world to know it. She knows what she wants and how she wants it. How can you argue? Really, someone give me your secrets so I can feel like my child doesn't control my life ;) Addison is so very independent. For example...when preparing a meal for Addison one must know a few things. She MUST pick out the dish she will eat off of. Even though she will bring you several different ones DO NOT try to pick out anything other than what she brought you She MUST see you prepare the food She MUST carry her own plate to the table She MUST pick out her own seat.  Does this sometimes make meals a very long process....yes. But it really does no harm to us. We aren't going t...