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Two Alarm Clocks

I know the hopes and dreams of most parents is for their littles to sleep through the night. That the screeches for food at midnight would end. Because exhaustion is real folks. It makes us snap at your spouse, the dog, the toddler, you name it and we've snapped at it. Never did I imagine that I'd desire for a child of mine to wake up due to hunger.

You see, Elias doesn't have hunger cues (or if he does he won't take his bottle, this kids is already sending mixed messages) for many reasons. He would sleep through the night without making a sound. If he we let him sleep through the night he loses weight, becomes even more lethargic, which leads to him to not eating at all.

SO, we have in our room two alarm clocks. Clocks that wake us up to feed our baby. Clocks that tell us it's time to eat again. My heart desires to hear him cry @ midnight to tell me it's time to eat. But for now we have two alarm clocks.



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